Romans 8:15 For ye have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; but ye have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father.
Today, many people are celebrating fathers day and it has me thinking about Abba's heart. Some of us grew up with God fearing fathers, loving fathers, protective fathers, adoptive fathers, spiritual fathers, stand in fathers, or hard working fathers. Some of us grew up with abusive fathers, apathetic fathers, missing fathers, or Godless fathers. Regardless of how we perceived our fathers growing up, they all have something in common, they are imperfect humans who have fallen short of the glory of Yah and are in need of His grace. It seems that many of us unknowingly relate the heavenly Father to our experience with our earthly father. I would encourage us all today to choose to forgive our earthly fathers of any and all short comings and hurts and surrender them to the Most High.
Abba, we now surrender any and all bitterness and unforgiveness to You. We repent of holding onto these things or allowing them to interfere with our relationship with you. Repair what has been broken in me Father. We thank you and we praise you for the healing you are doing now. In Yeshua's mighty name.
I was reflecting back today on so many times in my life when I must have broke my earthly fathers heart, and then it hit me, how much more must my sin and rebellion hurt my Abba in heaven? And if my earthly father is so quick to love me despite my failings, how much more does my perfect Abba in heaven love His daughter?
Elohim, I ask your forgiveness for any time that I have rejected you, betrayed you, rebelled against you, and broken your heart. I thank you and I praise you for your forgiveness and grace through the blood of your son Yeshua that it covers all my sins and failings. Abba, I ask your forgiveness for anytime I dishonored the authority of the man in the father role in my life , all rebellion towards him, lying, disrespect, unloving behavior, and pride. Abba, give me a heart of obedience and forgiveness. We praise you Father because you are worthy of our praise. In Yeshua's name. Amen.
I will never forget the night that I went to my 7th grade dance at school. None of the boys would dance with me and I left feeling so rejected and sad. My dad came to pick me up, and and when I got into the car, I burst out crying. He was quiet almost the whole way home. I'm sure he didn't know what to say right then; I'm sure his heart was breaking for his baby girl. I got home and ran up to my room to change clothes. I walked to the bathroom mirror ready to speak all manner of lies over myself when I heard my daddy's voice from down the stairs. I ran down and he had a song that we both loved, playing in the living room. He asked me to dance with him, and he said that the boys my age could not understand my kind of beauty yet. As we danced, I felt the pain slowly fading away, safe in my fathers arms.
This is so much like my walk with the Father. As I feel the rejection of the world and the pain of this life, I remember nothing can separate me from the love of my Abba in heaven. As the world tries to label and speak all manner of lies over me, my Abba says, "They just don't understand your type of beauty yet- You my girl are fearfully are wonderfully made." As I feel like a stranger wandering in unfamiliar land, Abba looses a spirit of adoption over my soul.
I long to be in your presence Abba... I don't even know what I will do. I will probably just lay in silence unable to speak yet filled with every praise imaginable. Maybe I will cry or dance or just fall before you. Thank you for never giving up on me even when I had run from you. Thank you for loving me in my failing. Thank you that through the blood of Messiah that I have the right to be called your child. Thank you for being my Abba.
Side Note- Thank you to my daddy for the dances, the love, and the unfailing goodness. I'm so glad Abba chose you to be my dad.